I have so many friends that I admire. I admire how they get out of the boat and stand with Jesus in the most frightening of storms. Storms that I know would leave me hanging on for dear life to the side of the boat.
I hear people speak and share their testimony, and I say to myself,"I want to walk like that with the Lord."....I will sometimes look for God to show Himself to me like He does to others that I admire......but He doesn't.....because I am not those people. As much as I admire them, I am not like them. I am like me. God made me (like it or not) how I am. Unique. Not like anybody else. So for me to try to imitate someone else's walk is pointless, because God designed me to walk a different way.
I once took a class that taught about Moses. Often you will hear people say, "I wish God would send me a burning bush!":) But think about it for a minute, if He did, what would you do? Would you tell ANYBODY about it?....:) I probably wouldn't either.:)
You know even Moses had to have been caught off guard by the whole thing. He didn't sit there and think for a minute and slap himself on the head and say,"Oh! This is my burning bush experience like Adam had!" :) He couldn't, because no one had ever had an experience with God like that before. It was unique. Designed just for Moses. God speaks to all of us in a different way, because He created us to be different. We each have our own unique relationship with our Creator.
Psalm 139:13-14
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my
mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully
and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
So now each day, I am trying to embrace my own personality a little more. I am trying to figure out what God wants me to do with the abilities and strengths He has given me. I am going to try to stop comparing my weaknesses to other people's strengths. God made me to be Amy. Not anybody else. I'm so grateful that He loves me just like I am......... a work in progress.:)